DEAR BROTHER
I need to say goodbye to you, to let you go and find the peace of mind that has been elusive to me since you left us. I am in pain, though I can’t find the tears to let the pain out. Keeping the pain inside is slowly killing me.
I feel that your death was senseless, but I somehow need to find a way to move on without you. You are gone, I have to accept that, but knowing that doesn’t make the pain any less. There should be a time for mourning, I don’t think I will ever be able to properly mourn you, my beloved.
There’s a bloody void left in my heart for you. I need to somehow meet you in my dreams while asleep in order to really let you go. To say my farewells to you because I am the only one in the family that hasn’t done so.
Wherever it is you are, keep me in your sight, keep the love alive. As I am here keeping your memories close to my heart, and never being able to forget you. Ever.
For now, goodbye, fare the well.
Love,
Joi.
